I've secretly been in love with a man I hadn't seen for over 5 years. I never stopped thinking about him. Now hes back in my life and there is this girl that says she loves him. He lives in a different state and doesn't consider her his girlfriend. I've met her. He took me to meet her. Probably never thought she would like me so much. She's always asking me to lunch and texting me when shes bored. She wants me to be her best buddy. The problem is she's really nice and I like hanging out with her, but she always wants to talk about him. It's more then I can handle. She asked me for advice one day as to whether or not she should stick around in hopes that he might ask her to marry him. I don't know if shes just crazy or if hes just an ass hole. It's probably a little bit of both. I deleted her posts from my facebook and I've kinda stopped texting him too. All I ever wanted was to have him back in my life. I can't do this anymore. I can't listen to her stories about their life together. There once was a time where he ad asked me to move in with him but I refused because he was in love with his ex girlfriend who he'd been with for most of his life. If I'd moved in it would have ruined his chances to be with her. Even though he was unhappy I knew he loved her and wanted to be with her in the end. I had to let him go. When he found out she was pregnant he asked her to marry him and I never talked to him again. Not out of spite but out of respect. It was time for me to step aside. For the next 5 years I was in a horrible relationship that made me miss him every day. In the end his wife went crazy and they divorced 2 years later, I was nowhere to be found. It breaks my heart to think of how it could have been different. I wish he had never introduced me to this girl. It's not fair to me...or her for that matter. As much as I love him I don't want to be his friend anymore. I know we will never be together. I don't want to know her either.
...I sang your songs I danced your dance
I gave your friends all a chance
Putting up with them
wasn't worth never having you...
I don't know how I'm gonna tell you
...I can't play with you no more.