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I thought we could be happy.

I've been dating him for just about four years and we've proven ourselves time and time again to be perfect for one another.. even though it's been a long distance relationship with us only seeing each other once a year for about a month, we've just... clicked on a whole new level.
When he came to visit this year, we took an exceptional risk... and his visit became more permanent.

Despite the environmental circumstances and other small issues, I was eager to show him that he could still be happy. I believed that just being together would make it all worth it for both of us, and that he could find happiness in the midst of everything else that makes him uncomfortable...

...

Apparently I was wrong.

He tells me he's happy to be with me. I see the truth of it in his eyes when he looks at me... The love is still there in the way he tucks his arms around my shoulders and kisses my forehead...

But.. there's something missing.

He's not... really happy... There's just too much going on.. too much negative.. and I'm.. I'm just not enough to make it worth it, it seems. And it's starting to eat at me... I'm doing everything I can, but.. It's just not enough.

I just.. don't know what to do anymore.

I don't want him to just not talk about it, because the problems would still be there, just silenced. I would hate that... and it may begin to make him bitter. He knows he still has a way out, can still get a ticket back home if he wants it, but... Even that's not enough reassurance, not enough to make this... all of this... alright.

I'm at a loss for what to do...
17
February
2012
Category:
Boy / Girlfriend
 
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Livefreeordie
Livefreeordie
Feb 24, 2012
11:42 AM

You need to leave. Pick yourself up by the bootstraps and walk away. The best beginnings sometimes start with the hardest goodbyes. When it's right, youll know. But it sounds like its not...and deep down you know it.

Livefreeordie
Livefreeordie
Feb 24, 2012
11:43 AM

You need to leave. Pick yourself up by the bootstraps and walk away. The best beginnings sometimes start with the hardest goodbyes. When it's right, youll know. But it sounds like its not...and deep down you know it.

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